I have basically accomplish nothing in life. I keep running away from everything that means anything to me. I treat those who want and love me like shit. I know, I am the only person that can change the outcome of whatever I do, but why does it seem so fucken hard. Im a big fuck up. I want to start over.


Time is really running out. I already lost one person that ment a lot to me. I now finally realized, what I had. Im sorry, I did this to you again. I miss you. I wish I could hug you, eat food with you, talk to you and cuddle with you and I want you to hold me again. Its killin' me.