It's easy to take big risks in the beginning, because the stakes are low or unknown. One of us can lose and walk away, check out of the hotel, take the next flight home. It's not like that anymore. The chips are stacked. It's funny, I had no fear at the start. I had vast powers. I would challenge you. Tease you. Tell you the hard truth. I was rich with beginner's luck. I was the girl who had never before been to a casino, yet I threw the dice like a shark and won. I won you. Triple cherries! Gold Rush! You couldn't drag my ass out of there. When I finally left it was morning, and I squinted as I opened the door. You liked me like that: rumpled, eyes bloodshot, alive. Shoot. I guess I froze once I figured out what I'd got. I haven't taken chances the same way since. So here's my plan: I'm going to bet on you to know what to do next. I'm going to turn out the lights, and lie here and wait. I'm gambling it all tonight.